"When young we
think there will come one person who will savor and sustain us always; when we
are older we know this is the dream of a child, that all hearts finally are
bruised and scarred, scored and torn, repaired by time and will, patched by
force of character, yet fragile and rickety forevermore, no matter how
ferocious the defense and how many bricks you bring to the wall."
There
is a crazed ambiguity towards dreams. Ambition is marked less on how capable
you are and more towards what your actual goal is, whether it is to be fit or
more intelligent. When desire is looked at from a more romanticized viewpoint,
it is misconstrued to many, me in particular. Doyle, in an elaborate way, is
trying to get across this idea of shared empathy we as humans possess towards
unrequited ideas and wants. Doyle expresses the fact that many of us harden our
hearts against fear of the unknown, a common fact. This moment Doyle writes of
fills my head with several memories and vivid artifacts of dreams deferred. It
awakens within me the ignored, bittersweet pitter-patter of my heart strings at
yet another remembrance that brings my dread: the wave you give to another that
is followed by ignorance, the smile you fake in a conversation when you have no
idea as to what expression is appropriate to use, and the idea of occupying
yourself so much that you fool yourself into loving your own apparent
loneliness. There is so much to be taken from Doyle's word, and so much that reverberates
in accordance with my own feelings that there is not enough justice to simply
agree with a MOE but to realize that the work as an entirety, in itself, is a
MOE.
I like the commentary that you make upon ambition. The focus on how it favors more on what the actual goal is as opposed to as one's capability to fulfill that goal, not only well captures the essence of ambition, but provides a good introduction to your response. We all have goals. We may all also have different goals. Yet in these different goals they all share one thing, our own personal ambition. For example I can say that one of my goals is that as chemical and bimolecular engineer I hope to be able to aid in treating or potentially curing a disease one day. Having said that I know that a lot of people may share the same goal but I know that more people than those do not. As we all strive to achieve our goal, perhaps even the same goal as the person next to us it all comes back to one thing, our ambition. Your interpretation of how Doyle romanticizes and elaborately expresses one’ ambition really caught my attention. The memories that you mention in your passage are quite relatable ones, thus making it easier for me to connect to your writing. I also wanted to point out that I agree with your statement, “to realize that the work as an entirety, in itself, is a MOE.” in that the whole piece does capture one’s interest and has one feeling as exhilarated as one can throughout it.
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